A. lopez,

its not like i've never known. i knew, deep in my heart i knew. and like a virus, the jealousy spread into my other organs and polluted my thoughts. i think my insides turned green. i hate her. and i hate you. but i love you too. and now ill never tell you. i can only wish you both miserable lives together.

when your with her dont look at me and smile. when were in class together dont flirt. when i say something funny dont laugh. you have one of me already. and one is enough for everyone. when i go out of my way to not see you 2 together dont try to find me. i wonder if you know shes ugly, i wonder if you like her type. preppy, chipper, happy, unoriginal, and plain. everything im not. fuck. i love you too much. and you couldnt care less.

eri

im sick. life sux. my best friend is a whore and i wish she was dead. shes going to jail because of the things she did to me. my cough makes my throat hurt. i have new characters and new arts and stuff but i havent uploaded. eh.

ok bye

hehe, not really im just really lazy
but atleast i have been drawing
im sick of my drawing style
im feeling better since my last journal. not much needs to be said.
once i open up my paypal maybe ill start making some money off this site
people who comment me....i love you. your comments are nice and make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside

people i comment. i worship you XD.

bye bye now

ON HIS FACE IS A MAP OF THE WORLD!!
gosh i love jared leto.....he is beautiful
ok bye 4 reals now.


~people i consider friends ~


~people i stalk~


~people that rawk~


~groups~
<------im a gryffindor

um i just needed to update...
i drew some things
but i dont feel like uploading it all at once.

im not very happy right now. i want to leave and go have fun...but my life's new habits are keeping me busy

my nails aren't groing back fast enough for me to bite them so i find myself pulling my hair out, casually.
strange...i dont notice it when i am doing it, i only notice the after effects
there is something that is troubling my soul deeply.....i dont know what it is.

i cant trust anyone, i feel like im pulling away when someone reaches out and im almost always confused. im always sleepy and i always feel sick. im always staring off into space and my self esteem is low. i second guess myself all the time and im feeling less creative as the months go by. im even getting lonely, but my dreams about life are getting bigger, i want more for myself, and i love imagining myself as the successful human being i want to be.

id rather you laugh at me then be sympathetic
(people i know) dont get worried, im just an emotional person
no need to advise me to see a shrink or to corner me into a wall and try to understand the things going on in my mind, you wont understand because i dont understand them.

im ok, trust me.

~eRI